[ Does it count as staying when he doesn't have a choice? When the alternative is - what, go hide in the other bedroom alone at best, brave the fog alone at worst? There is no other path besides staying here and letting this unfold, and it's only through that necessity that any of this even happened. It's the only reason it's still happening.
The feeling of lips at the back of his neck sends sensation rippling down his spine - not a heat like earlier, but that static autonomic sensory meridian response, tingling and pleasant hums. The breath puffing warm against him helps. It's all so much nicer than he really deserves. ]
Fuck- no, it's not that. You're fantastic.
[ He murmurs immediately, instantly, because apparently not overthinking isn't even an issue for that question.
It's the opposite, actually. It's because he does want you, and that's the problem.
He licks his lips, then softly elaborates. ]
I told you. Back at the start. I don't have anybody.
[ It's a choice. It's on purpose. Not because he couldn't, but because he knows better.
It's easier to confess this, this secret usually unspoken part, in the dark and with his eyes closed. With soothing touches that keep him grounded. With the inhibition removal that comes from extreme tiredness. It's the perfect environment to strip away barriers and allow the truth to float up. ]
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The feeling of lips at the back of his neck sends sensation rippling down his spine - not a heat like earlier, but that static autonomic sensory meridian response, tingling and pleasant hums. The breath puffing warm against him helps. It's all so much nicer than he really deserves. ]
Fuck- no, it's not that. You're fantastic.
[ He murmurs immediately, instantly, because apparently not overthinking isn't even an issue for that question.
It's the opposite, actually. It's because he does want you, and that's the problem.
He licks his lips, then softly elaborates. ]
I told you. Back at the start. I don't have anybody.
[ It's a choice. It's on purpose. Not because he couldn't, but because he knows better.
It's easier to confess this, this secret usually unspoken part, in the dark and with his eyes closed. With soothing touches that keep him grounded. With the inhibition removal that comes from extreme tiredness. It's the perfect environment to strip away barriers and allow the truth to float up. ]